Distant and dreaming

Sorry i've been missing. Life has thrown all sorts to this home, to both my son and i. Some good, some bad and some a mystery to be solved. Two birthdays, a major operation just before Christmas and a lot to sort out before then. Christmas shopping has started. 4 people already sorted and cards being made already. I'm also stitching christmas motifs in various colours and after buying 1000 venus threads i have plenty to keep me busy for a while. Also deciding that i need the food in ready for after the operation has meant i have had to buy extra each week, so that come the time it's all done. The kitchen is a little full in places but i have to do this. We certainly have enough cereal!

Our birthdays are pretty close to each other, i turned 43 and my son turned 12. Royal mail still has 2 cards that belong to us waiting to be delivered and some of my son's presents were late due to the same company...Now that the Royal mail has been sold off, i'm hoping things will improve, but somehow i doubt it.
At the same time, other half wasn't able to come down, and i freely admit that made us all feeling down. The added fact he won't be down when i have the op is a hard thing to figure, i feel let down, not just by him but others, after all i'm a single mum, about to have major surgery with a long recovery period and instead of feeling blessed by all the help, i feel like i've become a burden to everyone and with no support at all i'm not sure how i'm going to cope. As for my CMHT, well i'm just an annoyance to them, and having to get a doctor involved when they wouldn't help wasn't something i wanted to do, but a deep dark depression is taking me through the floor and beyond. If i'm not crying i'm shaking, and mindfulness skills only work so far.

In other news, my son is doing amazingly well at his new school. He loves big school and is enjoying most of the lessons. Art isn't his favourite, the dread of using something messy still an issue. Making cards is one thing, but art, that is whole other level. Science is of course a favourite. He loves it and the chance to do experiments was always going to be a big plus. He likes his teachers and they like him. He certainly has impressed two girls in his year too, they keep asking him out! He is always the gentleman even though they scare the life out of him,lol.

The heating finally went on yesterday, the coldness of winter is well on it's way .Admittedly  part of me is looking forward to it, but the rest not so much. I know i have plenty of craft stuff to keep me busy, and when on recovery time, i'll be stitching when ever i can. No lifting die cutting machines here... partly why i'm die cutting over the next few weeks, to make supplies for if i get the urge to papercraft as well. Weather news keeps reporting it's going to be  a harsh winter so i'm also making sure we have enough food for the birds, the cat and cat litter, an order to sort next week so all is covered. I'm wondering about salting the paths this year too. Last thing that anyone wants is a fall or slip, but that i'm going to look into before snow and ice arrive.

All in all, a lot going on and plans that need sorting and double checking. #Take care everyone and happy crafting when you have the time.